Tuesday, 31 March 2015


Chimichanga, Unit 14, Southwater Square, Southwater Way, Telford, TF3 4JG

Tonight I have been to Chimichanga on the new Southwater complex in Telford with my friends Roxy and Jenny. Chimichanga is a Mexican restaurant serving a variety of food from fajitas to steak, or nachos to cajun chicken. They do an offer midweek (Monday-Thursday) where you can get two courses for £10.99 from a set menu if you book a table online, which I thought was fairly reasonable (see the offer here). We shared a huge bowl of nachos to start, and then I had a veggie enchilada and churros for dessert. All of the food was delicious, but I think my favourite was definitely the churros (avid readers will know my love of Spanish doughnuts - just look at this post about the Liverpool Food Festival). They also serve 2 for 1 cocktails before 7pm, so myself and Jenny treated ourselves to a couple of Mexican Jam Jars, which tasted like passion fruit. 

I also loved the decor in Chimichanga - it had a very rustic feel to it, with corrugated iron walls and old bicycle wheels as lampshades, and little cactuses dotted about. I would definitely go back again and try the fajitas next time, although I did think they were quite expensive from £11.95 for veggie ones.

Afterwards we went to Cineworld to watch Get Hard starring Will Ferrel and Kevin Hart. The film is about a millionaire that is framed for fraud and gets sent to jail, and turns to another man to prepare him and make him 'hard'. I found it hilarious and was giggling all the way through - a perfect end to a lovely day :)
You may not always end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you are meant to be.

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Monday, 30 March 2015


Apley Farm Shop
Coffee Cortado Bridgnorth

Shirt - New Look
Trousers - Primark
Denim Jacket - Vintage
Flatform Trainers - Primark (Similar)
Necklace - Utility* (Similar)

I have had a lovely day spent with my old school friend Jenny, catching up as I haven't seen her since before Christmas. We went to Apley Farm (see my post on it here) for lunch, and I had a tuna and cucumber sandwich with a side of chips. All of their lunch is amazing and fairly priced. Afterwards we went to a little town called Bridgnorth (see my post here - how blonde was my hair over the summer?!) - we visited a few of my favourite shops like the little vintage one called Tea & Roses, and I bought some make-up from Superdrug. I haven't found any make-up I've got excited about and wanted to buy for ages, but I found a few bits from Rimmel and MUA that I'm looking forward to trying out, including this eyeshadow primer and this bronzing stick. I also got some sweets from an old sweet shop, because who can resist? And then we went for a drink and a slice of cake at a new cafe in Bridgnorth, called Coffee Cortado, and I unfortunately wasn't that impressed. There was an upstairs so the view onto the high street was nice, and my hot chocolate was good, but the carrot cake was served really crumbly and didn't really taste that great. We decided the building would make an amazing location for a cocktail bar though!

I actually really love this outfit - it's laid back but could be made smarter by adding formal shoes and removing the denim jacket. I got this cute necklace from Utility in my NW Bloggers Meet Up goody bag the other week, and I love it! There are a few by the same brand, Estella Bartlett, and would be lovely as gifts. 

This evening my Grandparents came over so my sister and I cooked a meal for them; it was lovely spending a few hours together as usual. We are currently watching Beauty and the Beast - it's taking me back to my childhood!
Nothing is permanent in this world, not even our troubles.
                       - Charlie Chaplin

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Sunday, 29 March 2015


The Ragged Priest Over It Crop Top

Over It Crop Top - The Ragged Priest
Dress - Primark (Similar)
Trainers - Primark (Similar)
Socks - Primark (Similar)

Today was very windy and therefore difficult to get any decent blog photos. Plus my mum not wanting to stand out in the rain. Oh, blogger problems.

I did not wear this outfit out as it's still way too cold. I'm not the sort of person that gets my legs out at the first sign of sun, but as you can see I'm yearning for some warmer weather in the UK. I think this outfit would look really cute with an oversized denim jacket thrown over the top, like my one from this post (ahh looking at those photos makes me want my tan back! Poor pasty legs). Denim jackets are great as a cover up when it's a little nippy outside.

Today has been a fairly productive Sunday for once - I have started to write my research project for uni which is looming over me at the moment. Then I just lay on my sofa and watched Pretty Little Liars (season 4, I'm getting there!) whilst eating Easter chocolate. Oh how I love this time of year!

I'm off to eat some cheese on toast that Mum's just cooked for me. Another reason I love being at home.
A Sunday well spent brings a week of content.

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Saturday, 28 March 2015

10 reasons I love being home

1) Being close to my family and friends from home.
2) The smells of the countryside - I haven't smelt freshly cut grass or manure for months (weird).
4) Long walks with my dogs.
5) Lie-ins every day of the week.
6) My dad's Saturday night meals.
7) Being able to drive my car.
8) Being looked after.
9) Being able to follow a family member around the house and chat for ages.
10) Having a break from the stresses of uni.

I feel so much more relaxed being at home; I don't think I realised how much I needed it. It has made me appreciate how lucky I am to live in the countryside and to be able to step outside my door and go on a lovely walk in the fields. Just walking my dogs yesterday made me feel less stressed and more free. Don't get me wrong, I love medicine, but sometimes I need a few days off from it.

Today has been spent in a cosy little study area that I created, doing a bit of work but mainly procrastinating and reading other blogs, before devouring my dad's amazing three course meal this evening. I hope you are all having a lovely weekend!
The best thing about the worst time of your life is that you get to see the true colours of everyone.

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Friday, 27 March 2015

The stigma around antidepressants

Stigma around antidepressants

Antidepressants. The drug that nobody wants to talk about, yet alone admit that they are on. I have been taking Citalopram for my depression since around June last year, and my dose was quickly escalated to the highest possible at 40mg as nothing else seemed to work. Since then I have slowly reduced my dose to 20mg, then 10mg, and have actually hopefully taken my last tablet this evening, depending on how stable my mood is over the next few weeks.

Many people believe that taking an antidepressant is a sign of weakness or an inability to deal with problems. Others think that they can be addictive or have no therapeutic value. However deciding to take medication for a mental health problem can be one of the bravest thing people decide to do. It shows that they are willing to get help, that they want to get better. It reflects that they believe that they can get better.

I was really wary about going on antidepressants to start with, but taking them has allowed me to understand my emotions and take the edge off things a little bit, in order for me to focus on getting better. Since taking a tiny pill every day I have been able to appreciate the little things in life, like the smell of flowers or a bird singing in a tree, as I am not so wrapped up in my negative thoughts all the time. My antidepressants have allowed my mood to be lifted slightly so that I can start to get some enjoyment and have little bursts of happiness. My emotions seem less tangled and confusing and I was able to start to see a way out of the darkness.

Nobody would bat an eyelid at taking medication for back pain, something you cannot see or quantify, so why is there so much stigma around medication for mental health? All antidepressants do is balance out the hormones in your brain, which when they are low can cause people to become depressed, much like the contraceptive pill to stop you from becoming pregnant.

I have never been reliant on my antidepressants. I have never felt panicked about not taking them - in fact I have been eager to come off them to prove that I am much better than I was 9 months ago. But I have also never felt ashamed to admit that I am taking them. Antidepressants have been proven to not be addictive; they are just a tool to help people when they are suffering and need a bit of help with their low mood. I firmly believe in psychological help such as counselling along with medication, but sometimes antidepressants are a necessity for those suffering with their mental health.

Stop being shocked when people tell you they are taking antidepressants, and don't assume that they are weak and vulnerable. Some of the strongest people I have met are taking medication for their mental health, and that is what helps them to keep going. Antidepressants don't change people, and they don't stop them from being themselves. They have helped me to rediscover myself and be the happy person that I normally am, all while appreciating the little things around me and being able to focus on overcoming my depression.
The strongest actions for a woman is to love herself, be herself and shine amongst those who never believed she could.

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Thursday, 26 March 2015

Home at last

Ahh, it's so good being at home. I got the train this evening back to good old Shropshire for Easter and since then have just been relaxing and reminiscing over old photos, like this goodie.

I was saddened to hear about the aeroplane crash in France today, but when I saw the media coverage I became even more upset. Headlines such as "Killer pilot suffered from depression" and "Suicide pilot had a long history of depression - why on earth was he allowed to fly?" have been splashed all over the major newspapers - if that isn't going to increase the stigma around mental illness then I don't know what is. Obviously I think that he should have been assessed for suicide risk before he flew a plane, but just because someone is depressed doesn't mean that they will kill others on purpose. The fact remains that people with mental illnesses are more of a risk to themselves than they are to other people. I guess we will never know what was going through the pilot's head at that moment, and I am terribly sad for the families of the deceased, but I really hope that this isn't a step in the wrong direction for depression and mental health in general.
You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.
                             - Martin Luther King

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Wednesday, 25 March 2015


I'm sure that 85% of my posts contain photos of food. And mainly food that I haven't cooked. This evening I went to my friends' house and we ordered Domino's pizza. We used the 'Feed 4 for £5' deal, which is £20 for two medium pizzas, potato wedges, garlic pizza bread and a bottle of Coke or Fanta. However this does not feed four ravenous medical students, so we ordered two of the deals and paid £10 each, which I think is really good. We caught up on each others' lives and had a good old gossip and generally had a really nice, relaxed evening.

The rest of the day has been spent on GP placement as usual. It is my last day tomorrow and I'm actually pretty sad as I've become really attached to the practice and almost feel like part of the team there. Although I'm going home tomorrow night for the Easter holidays which I am very excited about. Free food and TLC yayyyy!
Opinion is really the lowest form of human knowledge. It requires no accountability, no understanding. The highest form of knowledge is empathy, for it requires us to suspend our egos and live in another's world. It requires profound purpose larger than the self kind of understanding.
                  - Bill Bullard

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Tuesday, 24 March 2015

24 times I realised I was a uni student

1) When pasta and Nutella became dietary staples.
2) The time I bought new pants from Primark as I couldn't be bothered to do a wash.
3) When getting the bus became a luxury treat instead of walking home.
4) The time I got annoyed when someone threw out my mouldy lettuce. I could have got one more meal out of that.
5) When I started sneaking toilet rolls from home to save money buying them.
6) The time we ran out of milk so I ate my bran flakes with water. Never try this at home.
7) When Asda became 'too expensive'. Aldi FTW.
8) When I started to cut mould off cheese and bread.
9) Using extra blankets for warmth instead of wasting valuable food money on heating.
10) When I got way too excited at being given new coloured pens.
11) When 99.9% of my wardrobe started to be bought from Primark.
12) When I had to drink wine from a mug.
13) Said wine only cost £2.25 and was the most vile thing I ever tasted.
14) Proudly receiving my free McFlurry from McDonald's.
15) When I started to spend 70% of my time in pyjamas.
16) When I started to keep all of the coupons I ever receive. Those 43 vouchers offering 40% off Domino's will come in handy one day.
17) The time I fell asleep in the library.
18) When I spent £60 on A BOOK.
19) Paying 5p to print a teeny page of text out. And wondering where my £9000 a year is going.
20) Wearing wrinkled clothes because I don't own an iron.
21) When I started to savour free hotel samples of shower gel and shampoo, and love receiving anything like that for birthdays/Christmas/when you ask your mum reallyyyy nicely. Toiletries are expensive y'know.
22) When I started to miss the big juicy Braeburn apples that we have at home - 93p kids-size apples just really don't make the cut.
23) When my social life started to revolve around the TV schedule with my housemates. Socialising is expensive.
24) When I started to be able to sleep for 16 hours straight but still feel like I need another 4. University is exhausting.

Oh, being a student - it's a life of luxury, eh? To be fair it's not all that bad. I love it most of the time and being able to get that extra 10% off in shops doesn't hurt. Plus a free McFlurry is always going to go down well.
The one thing that you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw and build and play and dance and live only as you can.

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Monday, 23 March 2015

Year of Happy: March

All Postcards - Paperchase

Following on from the Year of Happy that I have committed to, March's prompt is:

"Create an inspiration board using your favorite colors, images, or sayings. Haul out those old issues of Glamour and go to town! Hang it somewhere you will see it every day so that you can feel happy and inspired whenever you look at it."

I decided to interpret this in my own way, and create this small wall montage with these postcards from Paperchase. I have wanted to do this for a while, so Year of Happy gave me the perfect excuse! My Pinterest is always filled with images of lots of pictures stuck up on a wall, so it's nice to own a little of that now. I love how I will wake up every morning and see them, and be able to add to them as I go along - I'm also thinking about sticking some photos up there too.

I picked postcards that all mean something too me or inspire me. The three animal ones were chosen because I love animals, and they made me laugh, which is always a good thing (especially the elephant trying to get on the bus). The 'Let's go' and 'Paris' ones are because I love travelling - and I want to visit Paris properly some time soon. I went when I was younger but I can't remember it very well, and it looks like such a beautiful city. The 'best day ever' postcard is to remind me that I can turn any day into a really good day if I try, and the 'have fun' one is to stop me from taking things too seriously, and enjoy myself. And lastly I liked the quote, 'create your own story'. I'm a sucker for a good quote (which you've probably noticed on my blog), and I like how this one shows that you can change your life for the better if you want to. I have; I've used my blog to help overcome my depression and completely turn my life around.

I also have another project going that I could write about for my March Year of Happy post - I have a little scrapbook that I add cuttings to out of magazines to help myself relax. I may show you a little of that soon; I love being creative and find that it really helps me feel better.

Today has been very tiring as I have been on my GP placement all day. I'm still really enjoying it and am actually taking some consultations while the GP watches, which is really exciting. But for now I have a date with Netflix and my cosy bed.
The things that make me different are the things that make me.
                                - Winnie the Pooh

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