Wednesday, 8 April 2015

Just a blip

So today has been awful for me. I have had a huge reduction in my mental health to the point where I felt like I was back to square one and in the same circumstances I was last June, and haven't felt this bad since then. It scared me a lot and showed me that I'm still not 100% okay, and that I need to dedicate more time to myself to get better and focus a little more on my mental health. My amazing parents came up to Liverpool to fetch me and I'm going to have a few days at home to recuperate.

There's always a positive to every situation and in this case I was shown that I have some incredibly supportive friends. Kelly and Maya my housemates sat with me for hours this evening, calming me down, cleaning me up and reassuring me until my parents got there. I'm literally so lucky to have people like that in my life. I love you both so much, thank you for your help today and I'm so sorry you had to see me that way.

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  1. Glad you 1. Asked for help and 2. Have a good support system. It's always discouraging to have a set back, I just had one myself. But it's starting to get better again, and I hope yours does too!

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    1. Thank you so much, I know I'm on the road to recovery - it's just so hard to see it sometimes xx

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  2. It's awful to have such a set back in your mental health, and it's one of my greatest fears. Glad that you've called it a blip because it is exactly that - one awful day does not mean you're back at square one again. Wishing you all the best xx

    Steph - http://nourishmeclean.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Steph, it has been so frustrating and I am still feeling very fragile but really am hopeful that it is just a blip. Thank you for your message and I hope you're okay xx

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  3. Oh lovely, I do hope you manage to feel a little better soon. Don't be too hard on yourself, it's one day so write it off, and when you wake up hold your head up high, remind yourself this is an illness not a choice, surround yourself by chocolate and find a netflix series/read a book in the sunshine. Sending all my love and you know where I am if you need someone xxx

    Sam | Samantha Betteridge

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment Sam, it means such a lot. Chocolate and Netflix have been helping me a lot over the last couple of days! Lots of love xxx

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  4. Oh no, I'm so sorry to heart that. From reading your blog posts it seems like you really find comfort in being back at home which I really think is going to help you at this moment in time. I hope that this safe environment with your loving supporting family and friends will make things a little better for you. I know what you mean by letting other people see you in a bad way, but I think it is the bravest thing to do to just let them help and care for you. In the next few days, perhaps try and concentrate on only yourself and what you want/need/feel (something I find really hard to do but when I have done it helped ease the emotional pain I was feeling) and of course this is only done right with chocolate in one hand and a cute film in the other and perhaps afterwards having a really big hug that lasts a while because I once read somewhere that 'nothing beats a well-timed hug' :) Here is my favourite quotation that I aim to live by everyday that I hope makes you feel a little better. 'Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle.' -Christian D

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    1. Thank you for your comment Camelia. Being back home has been a saviour for me, my family and friends are so supportive. Although my uni friends have been amazing too. I hate people seeing me in such a vulnerable state, but I know that they have to to help me. I have been trying to concentrate on myself but it's so difficult like you said, there are so many other people to worry about! That is such a lovely quote. I hope you wouldn't mind if I use it on my blog at some point? xx

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  5. No I don't mind at all, of course you can use the quotation. I love to share meaningful quotations and especially this one as they can mean something different to everyone. When this one had been shared with me, I knew it was going to be a keeper and that I wanted to live by it everyday. Something I do recently now is write down on paper 'Today is going to be a good day' which sounds silly I know but I like to at least it helps bring my attention back to a positive thought to the day when my mind is wondering elsewhere xxx

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    1. Thank you Camelia! That's a really good idea, a bit like mindfulness I guess xxx

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