Tuesday, 9 June 2015

Listen to your body


Right now I am about the most stressed I have ever been in my life, and I am not entirely sure why. I had a really good few days over the weekend and today it has suddenly hit me how close exams are, and how unprepared I feel for them. My depression isn't helping as it's sending off guilty and negative thoughts in my mind; my head is pounding with a headache; and I just want to get these last few weeks over and done with so that I can enjoy the summer. I don't think I've ever questioned why I'm putting myself through this degree as much as I have done today!

I think in life, and especially with depression, it's so important to listen to what your body is telling you. If you need to eat, eat. If you need to sleep, sleep. If you need to socialise, talk to someone. Don't deprive yourself of your most basic needs. I have felt so guilty recently napping when I am supposed to be working, but actually I've realised that I am so much more productive if I let my body have a rest for a while. My depression saps my energy so that I need a lot of sleep - and I think it's really important that I let myself have it.

At the end of the day, you don't get your health back if you lose it - there's no point in making yourself ill with stress.
Never get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life.



2 comments:

  1. For my first three years I surrounded myself with other medics and constantly compared myself to them. They're working, I need to be working; they're staying up, I need to study until 3am too etc. But then I moved in with my non-medic boyfriend and really listened to myself. If I needed to go to bed at 10pm, I did. I woke up at my time, relaxed after 9pm so I could actually fall asleep at a reasonable time and steadily worked through the topics at my own pace. Amazingly, it worked out so much better for me. I've never been happier and never been more successful in my exams! Keep going girlie! Medicine will either make or break you (we've all been there when we've wanted to quit) - let it make you.
    Sending you lots of hugs (and luck - though you won't need it!), Meg

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    1. Thanks Meg, this comment has really made me feel better about things. I definitely need to stop comparing myself to others, but it's so hard sometimes when medicine is so competitive! xx

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