I am currently sat in bed with a belly full of 3 huge pancakes, plus I have three more to eat in the morning for breakfast, and I'm ironically about to write a post about exercise... (If you're not interested, please just enjoy the photos of our amazing pancake stacks instead).
I find exercise hard - I always have done. It's not something that comes naturally to me, and it's not something that I particularly enjoy doing. However, whenever I actually do exercise, I feel so good afterwards and always wonder why I don't do it more.
Personally for me, exercise is a bit all or nothing. Once I get into it, I could do it almost every day and I get a spurt of productiveness. However as soon as I get out of the routine, I find it really difficult to get back into and I can go weeks without breaking even the slightest sweat.
I have been swimming the past couple of weeks, but recently I have found myself putting it off and making excuses. I was supposed to go last night, but I felt too tired. Then I was going to go today, but I scoffed 3 pancakes with my housemates instead. I washed my hair tonight, so I can't go tomorrow because it's not hair washing day... etcetera.
I actually don't feel too guilty for exercising, I feel more bad about having paid membership fees for the pool and not necessarily using it to its full advantage. I feel like I get a bit blase about it and don't think of it as a huge priority most of the time. I'm also not really doing it to change my body or get fit, but more for my mental health as I always feel so good afterwards; plus it helps me sleep better. Since feeling better in myself I have stopped worrying so much about how my body looks, and that has made me feel even better. For me, my mental health is much more important than how I look.
I think exercising is all about finding something that you enjoy doing. For me, that's swimming and dancing. I haven't particularly found any classes for dancing that I have been really interested in doing, partly because they're often too expensive but also because I don't want any competitiveness to be involved in it (I am one of the least competitive people you'll ever meet!). On the other hand, I have been swimming - and once I'm there I really, really enjoy it. It's just finding the motivation to get myself to the gym that I find the hardest - I think it's a lot easier when someone comes with me because it pushes me into going.
I'm not really sure what point I wanted to get across by this post, but I guess I just wanted to point out that it's okay to struggle with exercising. It's okay to not be a gym bunny or to enjoy lazing around a lot. And it's especially okay to stuff your face with pancakes once in a while.
It all begins and ends in your mind. What you give power to has power over you, if you allow it.